Saturday, 22 April 2017

Blogging Insecurities.



Blogging Insecurities
Blogging InsecuritiesBlogging Insecurities

Right off the bat I have a pretty good sense that this post is gonna be a long one at that. So if you're in for the long run, go put the kettle on and come back with plenty of custard creams to tide you over. Or if you want to just appreciate the sheer joy on my face eating that beautiful scone at the Great British Cupcakery months ago, then by all means... now is your time

As you're reading this I'll be either be halfway through deadlines stressed to the nines with a glass of Blossom Hill, or I'll be extremely proud of myself for not leaving everything last minute. Probably the latter, probably still have wine either way. (Sorry I've been away for a while, I'm busy with deadlines as you can guess).

When I first started blogging I wanted to introduce myself properly - but I was always way too nervous. I was terrified of someone from home catching wind of what I was doing and telling everybody else and the whole thing was enough to put me off for quite a long time. I live in a small town, I've got a bunch of wonderful people in my life but the thought of someone reading this from my old school or somebody I work with used to make me want to vomit. For a brief period of time I decided to create a separate Instagram and went by a hilarious name that I'd never repeat again, just because I was so scared of opinions, imagine that! 

Fast forward a few months and a few 'fuck it' moments later, Velvet Spring was born. Don't get me wrong, there's still things I wish I had the balls to do, I'd love to start my own YouTube channel but even now almost one year later the thought of somebody watching my videos, analysing my every move just totally freaks me out. I actually created one once and I was super proud of it, then my grandma *biggest fan* shared it on her Facebook page and I deleted it in seconds without a trace. And honestly, I know that there's still going to be a bunch of people who will give it the 'lol look at Jen, thinking she's a blogger' but that just doesn't phase me anymore, I'm proud of what I do! 

It's those little moments that I love most about blogging. It's the baby steps along the way that help you become the blogger you are. If you'd of told me a year back I'd be working with some of my favourite brands and actually attending blogging events by myself I'd of asked if you were feeling okay.

Don't get me wrong and I'm sure we all know at times it's overwhelming. You only have to mention the words SEO and Analytics to me and my brain goes into meltdown mode and I find myself reading blogging tips for hours. But it's so worth it, I've met bloggers who are nothing but lovely and it's that kind of community that will always encourage me to keep my butt in gear and do what I love. Shoutout to Curly and Wordy, It's Lauren Victoria and Pint Size Pixie.

So, to round off a very wordy and nothing but good vibes post...
 I'm going to admit a few home truth 'blogger mishaps' here:

I leave bobbles around my wrists that ruin good photos / I almost always have chipped polish / my hair is pretty straw-like because I switch up my colour like there's no tomorrow /  I'll have a blob of mascara somewhere around my eyelids without a doubt because I'm bloody useless at applying it / I'm adamant my face is wonky and it makes me very self-conscious so you'll never see a front-facing photo. But it's okay, I'm an imperfect blogger and that's exactly the way I want to be!

Thanks for reading, J x

11 comments :

  1. Totally relate to this post! I think a lot of it is human nature sadly.

    Jaynie Shannon | Beauty & Lifestyle

    xx

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  2. Aww Jen!!! First off these photos are so gorgeous. You're the cutest. Your blog and you as a blogger has come so far and you deserve a big congratulations. I love your blog so much and I really do enjoy reading it. Also THANK YOU so so so much for giving me a little shout out. That completely took me by surprise and made me grin like a crazy person!!!! hahaha xx

    Lauren | itslaurenvictoria.blogspot.co.uk

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  3. Mate, first off you're freaking stunning! Your photos are always gorgeous and I love your hair colour! Secondly, reading this post was like reading a list of my thoughts! I feel exactly the same - I'm still pretty insecure and constantly scared of my friends/family getting hold of my blog and seriously judging my bad photos or ridiculous opinions - and I kind of want to start a YouTube channel too - but I never think about it because it scares me so much!

    I'm beginning to get more into blogging now and really want to start going to events and making friends through blogging but I'm unsure how to start! Also I love Curly and Wordy too - such great posts (as are yours and don't you forget it!)

    JosieVictoriaa // Fashion, Travel & Lifestyle

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  5. I totally get what you mean! Up until a few weeks ago I kept my blog private from my family and friends for fear of laughter, now I'm proud of my blog and not as bothered as to who knows about it! :) Xxx

    www.natalieleanne.com


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  6. Me and mascara aren't a match made in heaven either, it's a constant struggle when it should be easy haha. I've been through so many of the same insecurities in terms of blogging as well, like people finding out about it. It's such a weird thing to think about now because I really couldn't care anymore!
    Kathy x
    Alongcamekathy

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  7. I can completely relate to this! Especially the blogger mishaps! Really enjoyed reading this post and it looks like you're really enjoying your breakfast - cute photos =) x

    Victoria | VictoriaaHelenn

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  8. I am with you on being nervous for people to find my blog initially. When I started mine I tried to do everything completely anonymously, it didn't end up being for long!

    Danielle xx
    http://www.fashionbeautyblog.co.uk/

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  9. I'm a new reader after stumbling across your blog on WhatLaurenDidToday's blog post. Your photos are gorgeous firstly, and I totally relate to the whole youtube thing - I've been creating a channel since 2010 or something ridic! Lovely blog post and blog in general, now I'm away for a nosey on some older posts.

    x
    www.hellosaralou.blogspot.com

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  10. I love it cause it's so relatable and honest.
    Only 3 people in my life know I write my blog (ok, and the whole Twitter, but my friends don't use Twitter and I keep track of who follows me haha) I've been wanting to start my own YouTube channel as well, but I'm to scared. So, fuck it...
    we need more of "fuck it" moments. :)

    xo Honey - blog Royal Lifestyle - Twitter - Instagram

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  11. This is super encouraging! I'm new to blogging and it's intimidating to bare your soul, you don't know how or even if people will respond. Then you start getting a little too self-reflective and stressed out. At least I do :) But it's also a really great experience and especially cathartic. Love your blog and your photos!

    :)

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